Well, this year has been a year of bad firsts--and they're all related to the same paper. I was exhausted on Sunday so I decided NOT to do the research for my Enlightenment Europe essay due tomorrow. That meant that I would basically be trying to complete a paper--reasearch to final copy--in one day. Well, that obviously wasn't a good idea, and leads me to my next first--the first time I'm going to hand in a paper late. @_@ Thank goodness the penalty is only 1% per day. Still, I've always prided myself on my ability to get things done on time, albeit last minute. So there goes that. I guess it's a good experience for me--humbling. This year, this course might be a writeoff, but hopefully I've learned my own limits and therefore will not be tempted to attempt something so stupid again.
*sigh* I just hope that I can get the essay done tomorrow at least. Right now my problem is that I have lots of information, but no idea how to put it all together. Actually, this seems to have been my problem all year--formulating a solid thesis. ARGH.
But I'm not as upset about this as you'd think I'd be. I mean, yeah, I'm certainly not proud of the fact that I'm going to hand in a paper late, but at the same time, I'm not all torn up about it. I wonder if that's just a sign of how sick of school I am right now? That's definitely not a good thing considering that for teacher's college, the marks they'll be looking at are my last ten completed courses, which haven't exactly been impressive. I've got a 68 from Major British Writers in there, what will probably be a 60-something in Enlightenment Europe from this year, and a bunch of 70s from other courses this year and last year. ^^;; I hope I don't have to take a fifth year to boost my marks!! Dang. I don't really have any plans other than teaching...
