You know you're in full holiday mode when you're almost finished an essay and you KNOW that it's probably a C-paper at best and don't even care because you just want to get it finished! Yes, that's me! I was freaked out about the paper on Saturday, but after spending so much time trying to find research materials, I just got tired of the darn thing. So yes, that *splat* you hear is the sound of my GPA doing a freefall into the Grand Canyon.
Unfortunately my parents are probably going to blame hockey for this, which is really unfair since I think it has more to do with my general fatigue than anything else. I mean, since grade eleven I've done school-summer job-school-summer job non-stop, not to mention throwing in softball and a short term mission into the mix, so it makes sense that I'm going to get tired of doing stuff eventually, right? It just happened to be during the school year that I finally reached my limit--maybe it had to do with combining school AND work, I don't know.
So yeah, I know I'm not really an objective judge of this, but I suspect that my marks would have taken a nosedive this year even without hockey. I just don't care about school right now. Hopefully this situation will improve after a nice long Christmas break (during which I still need to study, ^^;;) but I don't know if even a sudden change in attitude would help my marks at this point.
*sigh* I just wish my parents could understand that I value my sanity and happiness more than my marks right now, and that it's not going to be the end of the world if I have one bad school year. It sounds bad to say this, but it's not like they went to university, so they can't really understand that for most people it's not as easy as just working really hard and getting good marks. Getting the marks in university requires some degree of sacrifice--unless you're a genius--and there are times when I simply don't have it in me to make those sacrifices.
Geez, I hate the fact that I'm sounding like I'm trying to justify laziness and procrastination. I guess I just wish my parents would cut me some slack. Sometimes it feels like all they care about is my marks, not how I'm feeling about school.
