After living a somewhat charmed school life as a little to no-effort A-student, reality has finally hit and I'm getting the types of marks I justly deserve for my efforts: B-minus. I've accepted those marks without a lot of weeping or moaning because I know I deserve them, but I've also discovered something about myself. You see, I always thought that I was just a lazy, unmotivated person. The law of dimished returns has supposedly been my motto; if it takes too much effort, I'd rather get a lower mark and not stress myself out. I've never had to test my belief in that motto, however, since my marks have always been good without much effort anyway. Now that my marks aren't very good, I find myself unwilling to hold to that creed any longer.
If I can get a B-minus without trying, I know that I can get A's again with some effort, and more importantly, I believe that I owe it to my parents, who are putting a lot into my education, and even more to myself to do the best that I can do. Now that my full effort is required to get good marks, I can no longer be satisfied with less than my best efforts.
It's great that I'm realizing this now, when it's not too late to turn my marks around, but it probably would've been better to have figured this out earlier, before I picked up so many bad study habits that I'll now have to undo! ^^;; Yup, with the increase in volunteer hours next term, as well as my newfound desire to work hard, I know that next term is going to be brutal, but I hope I'll be able to prove myself up to the challenge. I also think that it's going to be more important than ever for me to learn to rely on God's strength and not my own, because obviously, on my own, I'm not very good at studying or doing assignments in advance.
