I finished my Japanese history essay! I don't even want to think about how "good" it is, but at least it's done! Not including the occasional naps, I've been up for 22.5 hrs. @_@ Really, I don't know why I do this to myself.
It's funny, but the last time I stayed up late to get an essay done (done, but not done well) was Thanksgiving, when I had to finish my Romantic Poetry and Prose essay. As it happens, I got it back yesterday, and the mark was about what I expected, which probably isn't a good thing. I mean, when I finished the essay I knew that it was worse than anything I had done in high school, and the mark reflects that. Still, I'm quite content with my grade, considering that I was expecting around 68% and I actually got 72%.
It's actually the lowest mark that I've ever received on a written assignment in my life but strangely enough, it doesn't really bother me. Maybe it's because I was expecting worse. I usually pride myself on writing well-argued essays, even if the flow or grammar is a bit off, but this time there was such a huge gaping hole in the central support for my argument that an entire legion could have marched right through. You could totally tell that I didn't have a clue as to what was going on in the poem and was just pulling stuff out of the air. If I had marked myself, it definitely wouldn't have been a B, I wouldn't have given myself more than a C. The fact that I did get a B suggests that my writing style must've been pretty good, so I'm proud of that at least.
Geh. I don't know if I'm making any sense right now. The point is, even though the marks for my papers are lower this year, I'm okay with that because I know it's a fair evaluation of what I produced. Also, I know that the problem isn't with my style, it's with my understanding of the specific essay topics, so as long as I have a good grasp of the topics in futures, I don't foresee maintaining such a large drop in my marks all year.
Hopefully I've learned from the experiences of this term and will catch up before the Christmas Break so that I can start next term anew.